Before we get to what I have to say about my upcoming performance; The schedule for August 2nd is fixed, I will be on at 14:50 (see below for the full schedule). I also want to correct my translation error from earlier on, the doors still open at 14:30 but CLOSE at 15:30, meaning if you walk in after Eri's live you might be refused entry, so be early and support all artists at the event!
As I mentioned earlier on, on my Ameblo, this performance will be for the sole purpose of my next release preview. I am working on my first album in English and Japanese, mixing a lot of different styles and genres to something completely new that I haven't seen like this anywhere before.
I feel like I have grown up a lot since my debut single, and I'm ready to leave that chapter of my life behind for good now.
In the very beginning "Japans Nr. 1 Idol" (*cringe*) was my goal, but my dreams have changed.
I can't see myself fit into the image of a cute, pure, forever young teenage girl anymore, especially music-wise.
Ever since I started I got a lot of feedback online saying "That's not you, what are you trying to be?!", and though I always felt like I had to brush it off as "just hate", I looked into my mirror one day and had to ask myself "Who the fuck are you?!".
I never thought I'd lose myself in the picture of a certain image I had to portray as much as I did, so I set out on a journey to find out who the hell I actually am. I haven't found that person yet, but I got a glimpse on what I had to do.
For now I want to sing my own songs. I want to tell my own stories in my own voice.
Not a computer-generated echo of someone elses idea of what I should have been.
I am not going to return to working for agencies, unless I am offered the freedom I gave myself with this project in return.
I heard a lot of agents complain about their clients in the past, saying they were too much of a diva, asking for things. Back then I would take their side and say "yeah, sure, I'll work for free".
By now I understand that there is nothing more valuable than creative freedom and being able to express yourself through the mediums of your choice.
I feel incredibly lucky and grateful for all of your support of my old self.
I couldn't have become who I am today if I didn't lose myself, yearning for the admiration of strangers.
But I want to live on as an artist, but another cardboard-cut-out of money-hungry companies.
If you chose to stick around, I'd like us to become friends and leave that distance between us to a different part of this story. I'm not above the people who support me, I am the exact same as you, starting over from scratch, dreaming big and falling every now and then.
And that's the best possible way we could go together.
Our own.
Thank you.
Himezawa
I feel like I have grown up a lot since my debut single, and I'm ready to leave that chapter of my life behind for good now.
In the very beginning "Japans Nr. 1 Idol" (*cringe*) was my goal, but my dreams have changed.
I can't see myself fit into the image of a cute, pure, forever young teenage girl anymore, especially music-wise.
Ever since I started I got a lot of feedback online saying "That's not you, what are you trying to be?!", and though I always felt like I had to brush it off as "just hate", I looked into my mirror one day and had to ask myself "Who the fuck are you?!".
I never thought I'd lose myself in the picture of a certain image I had to portray as much as I did, so I set out on a journey to find out who the hell I actually am. I haven't found that person yet, but I got a glimpse on what I had to do.
For now I want to sing my own songs. I want to tell my own stories in my own voice.
Not a computer-generated echo of someone elses idea of what I should have been.
I am not going to return to working for agencies, unless I am offered the freedom I gave myself with this project in return.
I heard a lot of agents complain about their clients in the past, saying they were too much of a diva, asking for things. Back then I would take their side and say "yeah, sure, I'll work for free".
By now I understand that there is nothing more valuable than creative freedom and being able to express yourself through the mediums of your choice.
I feel incredibly lucky and grateful for all of your support of my old self.
I couldn't have become who I am today if I didn't lose myself, yearning for the admiration of strangers.
But I want to live on as an artist, but another cardboard-cut-out of money-hungry companies.
If you chose to stick around, I'd like us to become friends and leave that distance between us to a different part of this story. I'm not above the people who support me, I am the exact same as you, starting over from scratch, dreaming big and falling every now and then.
And that's the best possible way we could go together.
Our own.
Thank you.
Himezawa
