Hello you all and welcome back!
On the past month I have made a video addressing an issue I had with a friend regarding gender, which spiked the interest of quite a few of you. At the end of it I managed to come out, in the most casual way I could imagine. LGBTQIA and gender identity topics are on top of my list of things I can't know enough about, and in case you missed it... I'm kinda part of it?!
COMING OUT & SOCIAL MEDIA
When it comes to coming out of the closet - online is probably the least comforting thought out there, let alone before telling someone close to you. A lot of it seemed so surreal and far away to me, but it started without me even saying anything about it.
Selfies and the responses I got from followers were enough to spike the thought of coming out to the public aka the rest of you.
Then YouTube dropped the bomb; LGBTQIA+ content and entire channels blocked off, and I suddenly thought how odd it was. Why would I have to publicaly announce who I am when I already get asked about my preferred pronouns? - And I discarded it again. Pushed it all aside, hoped it would just resolve itself, and that was just as stupid as YouTubes current algorythm.
If you want people to know about you, you have to tell them. There is no way around it. Luckily I just kind of added it on to the serious(-ish) talk video, as it fit the topic, because I still don't feel like it has enough relevance for me to make a separate video about it.
Change & Growing
As I already mentioned on Candy Life, my Lolita blog, I outgrew the sweet style and long hair during the past year, and I will keep on growing and changing at my own pace. Who knows who I will be in a couple of years down the line, or what my life will be like. I don't want to feel pressured into one category anymore, and just be.
I have started a new music project this month and I am looking forward to all the great new things my agency has in store for me as well. There is so much I haven't done and seen yet, and since I made this video I felt more than just liberated.
I don't know my parents reaction to it yet, and most of my friends probably already knew without me saying too much about it.
I can't really give any advice on coming out or finding yourself, for all I know it's just doing what you want to do and everything else will naturally follow.
Until next time,
Long time no see!
I just came back from a long road trip and decided to use it to start off (or more likely continue) a vlog series on my main channel called "Hello, World". It's less of the talk-ey, every day live vlogs that you can find on my second channel, but more of a documenting, fun kind of vlog series.
I recently got myself a new set up (as you might have seen in my current videos), inlcuding a DSLR camera. I am going to make a post about my new equipment later, but for now... Enjoy!
Welcome to Hogwarts!
As I already mentioned I went on a trip for work and on my way back made a quick stop in Osaka to visit Universal Studios! I wanted to go for quite a while, mainly for the Harry Potter themed area called Wizarding World. Despite having spend two years of my life in London, England, I barely got to go wizard-related sightseeing and have only been to Platform 9 3/4 during my last week before moving to Japan... I am however a big fan of the Harry Potter franchise, and recently got to introduce some of my friends who never read the books or watched any of the movies through Fantastic Beasts. To me it was hard to believe there are generations that didn't grow up reading the novels, when it was obvious; I just can't imagine a world without?!
Butterbeer and Wands
Even though it serves as a great backdrop, the castle isn't accessible, unlike several shops from Diagon Alley and Hogsmeade, which were conveniently mashed together, for obvious spacing reasons, which wasn't that great on the fan heart, however easier to navigate around and buy presents for friends and family as well as some souvenirs.
Most popular seemed to be butterbeer, which comes with take-home cups (for a little extra) and wands.
Yes, actual wands!
Wands are designed for the themed attractions around the world and have an actual light and sensor to perform spells as you could see in my video. There are several designs to chose from... At Ollivanders!
The most obvious to try for me was Butterbeer. Let me tell you that the taste was completely different from what I expected. It's really sweet and reminded me of caramel apples, though I always imagined it would taste like sweet cider, that was a new level of sweetness!
During cold weather they serve hot Butterbeer as well which tasted slightly different from the cold one... I wonder where the difference lies?
Go to Attraction, Become the Attraction
Apart from the crowds - which aren't thinning out at any point of the day by the way - I got nothing else to complain about... Oh yeah... The Gaijin Attraction (TM).
Whether it's for being recognized or fitting into either the beauty ideal or getting mistaken for park staff - in hindsight I really wish I knew which of these it was that made me attract what felt like 99% of the high schoolers visiting USJ. I don't wan't to seem ungrateful for the attention, but it lately really got to me on a completely different level.
I used to appreciate being asked for pictures out on the streets, especially when I dressed up. However I was there to have a good time, take pictures and video clips for my channel and I got to spend more time getting taken pictures of than actually walking around enjoying myself.
I was on the verge of tears when my manager finally got to pull me aside... More than once, to sneak into a shop and escape the madness.
Again, I am really thankful for people who appreciate me dressing up - be it at USJ or in Harajuku or wherever - but it's also the reason I am wearing it out less and less... And it makes me kind of sad, because I always used to dress up for myself or my own material (photos, videos), and getting sneakily photographed walking down a street makes me uncomfortable. When asking for a snapshot or two is okay, please don't overdo it or crowds keep piling up and hours go by.
This applies way more to wearing J-fashion than low-key cosplaying at USJ, but I could go on about this forever. If you want a lot of pictures, come to open photoshoot events (you can even request costumes at those), or catch me at conventions, when I got time for it!
This doesn't just apply to me, I saw a lot of my friends posting about being uncomfortable when they got to Harajuku. Less because of high schoolers asking for pictures but because of sneaky photographers. Be considerate and it's all a-okay!
Overall I had a great time at USJ and Osaka in general, though I was really worn-out from my trip, I was glad to be back in colder temperatures, got to see the castle and try my best at spell-casting.
Back in Tokyo I spent the whole weekend on a Harry Potter marathon, which I highly recommend to anyone whether you have seen all movies so far or haven't had the chance to do so yet.
Let me know if you would like to visit USJ & The Wizarding World of Harry Potter yourself or have already been there.
Until next time,
Hello you all and welcome back!
It's been a while since I updated my blog, and there is a lot to catch up on.
So let's get to it!!
CLASSIC BLACK DRESS
PASTEL SWAN LAKE
The final outfit was sent to me by Baby Ponytail, a lolita fashion brand from Europe that I enjoyed working with before. Their latest release, a dress series called "Swan Heart" features white swan couples, forming hearts with their necks on beautifully pastel coloured dresses and skirts. With a lot of love for the dress details I chose some other items to put together a coordinate for the photoshoot.
IDOL GROUP UPDATE
As I mentioned in the vlog above, I finally got some good news from the idol audition I went to. At the final stage last month, we got to announce to a live audience that the 13 of us will start our activities as an idol group.
The groups name is "Baby Wolf", which is leaning on the fact that we aren't just any average idol group but also compete in "Jinro Games" every month on NND.
Apart from the group auditions being over for now, I have also started livestreaming on the chinese APP "BLive" aimed towards China lately, which has been a lot of fun. It was mainly drawing, traditional art, my workout and me streaming from popular tourist locations in and around Tokyo. I hope I can keep up with it daily, and see one or two of you there.
Hello and welcome back!!
As you might have seen on my Twitter: I am participating in Takeshobo’s 2nd MissKissCa Gravure Audition!
Two days ago I had the chance to experience my first ever gravure themed photoshoot, and tonight I am livestreaming on their program.
- Viewers votes decide who will move up to the next stage, so here is how you can help:
- Go to THIS LINK (!!!!) and scroll down to my picture, there is a button for voting, click it so it turns gray. Congratulations! You did it!
- You can vote ONCE A DAY (every 24h),
Character: Imanotsurugi - 今剣
Series: Touken Ranbu - 刀剣乱舞
Photographer: Ishihara Shin
This weekend I had a photoshoot with some of my friends at Vantan design school in Tokyo!
My friend put together three different outfits resembling a character from the "Lolita" novel.
Though I know very little about the book, I enjoyed posing as the character and trying out three so different outfits that ranged from (not actual) kidswear over vintage country to underwear.
First and foremost: Welcome back and sorry to keep you waiting!
I have been incredibly busy with procrastinating (and cosplay) in the past weeks and woke up to the enormous shock of realizing I still have a website to run?!
It's amazing how quickly time passes when you got nothing to do. But never the less I'm back today to tell you about my adventures at C90!
I'm not even goint to try and cover up that I completely missed out on blogging about my latest event "AkiCos Vol.14" which took place in Akihabara one week prior to Comiket. It was a lot of fun performing again and though I didn't get much practise lately, I enjoyed myself and the crowd. I performed as Miki from The Idolm@ster series once more, dancing to Ready!! and giving a tiny talk.
C90 DAY 1
For friday I decided to wear the more airy version of Imanotsurugi (Touken Ranbu) I've been preparing for a photoshoot and it went quite well.
As I was working three out of three days at the event I wasn't able to stay outdoors for the whole day (Bless, I would have not made it out alive if I did), so I only got around two hours of potential meet and greet, photo and general free time during the event.
As the east hall cosplay area was closed off this time, it was a bit difficult to navigate through the crowds and actually find a spot outdoors, but given what I heard from photographers us cosplayers weren't the only ones thrown off by this.
I still had a great friday and even got some nice first pictures taken!
(Picture by @rusk_4511 on Twitter)
C90 DAY 2
Day two was a whole lot less fun, melting in a three layer shirt-shirt-hakama combo, things going wrong at work and my friend running errands for work at the worst timing possible. Of course it's not his fault and I don't blame him for being a hard worker, but we just didn't get any pictures taken outside the booth which was a bit dissappointing. We weren't planning on going out into the cosplay areas much either and just tried to have fun near our slightly cooler booth.
C90 DAY 3
Oh boy, oh boy! This was the day I kept going for, through the heat and the work related stress, I counted the hours to finally put on the cosplay and make up I've been hyping myself up for the most. It was a wild ride to even get to the cosplay on time, getting my eyes ready to handle contact lenses for a whole day, and altering last minute while being stuck in handimen construction site hell at home the day prior.
But. I. Made. It.
And it was worth it.
I got to take a ton of pictures, meet a lot of amazing new people and even a photographer from AkiCos, who I got to do a mini photoshoot with!
One of my most favourite shots of the improvised photoshoot were these.
I know they probably cause some of you to jump from your seats, but I was aiming for that. (Sorry?)
It's been a bit hard for me lately but I finally learned to embrace my weird site and just do whatever I feel like and I think those two shots catch exactly that (and the character) quite well. My friends were staring quite fascinated when I took out needle and thread to sew through my own hand, though I want to apologize to those who worried a little about it. (It's pretty much harmless since the skin on your palm is pretty thick and you can barely feel any of it)
For those wondering: The supposed 'stitches' on my arm and neck are tattoo sheet stickers that you can order at print shops, buy at Tokyu Hands and print yourself or simply buy off amazon. Though they are easy to put on and replace, they are harder to get off when needed and I was stuck with them for at least two days ofter which owned me some weird stares at the grocery store.
Despite the heat sunday was probably my best day at Comiket so far - and given that this was my fourth time there that really means something. If not everything.
I am looking forward to more events this year (especially this summer - fall), photoshoots and hanging out with my newly won friends.
And to sum it all up I want to recommend Comiket to my foreign friends who might be visiting Tokyo around new years. Maybe not the queues, but the experience and the difference between the western and the japanese cosplay scene that they will encounter.
(Picture: @sisorutoice Twitter)
Character: Fukawa Touko 腐川 冬子
Series: Danganronpa ダンガンロンパ
Photographer: Ishihara Shin
Studio: Booty Tokyo